apathy-s a state of indifference, or the suppression of emotions such as concern, excitement, motivation and passion. An apathetic individual has an absence of interest in or concern about emotional, social, spiritual, philosophical and/or physical life. They may lack a sense of purpose or meaning in their life. He or she may also exhibit insensibility or sluggishness.
i hope one day he stops feeling this way but its all up to him to change his own life. his future is in his own hands. if his life is unhappy, he can always do something about it. Never trying is the only true way to fail.
opposites attract because they balance and complement each other. However, it’s also good to have someone with similar dreams and desires as you because then you would always be compatible. things don’t work out for a reason. i think from now on i will look for someone more similar to me because then i will have just as much care and love as i give. I was really happy with our relationship of course, but i was giving so much and not having my love reciprocated as much as i needed. all i really want is someone to love and care about me and accept me for who i am. i don’t ask for much, but this is something i really need otherwise i have to leave for my own good because without these things i can never be truly happy. i feel sad because i thought he could be the one that i could lean on and love for a long time. i was beginning to believe in us, that my love would make him care more. i did begin to see all of his wonderful changes and i’m so grateful but i needed a little more that he couldn’t give to me at this time. maybe he could at a later time, but i can’t wait if he’s not willing to wait for me. i’m going to move on and figure things out for myself. i’m going to focus on my own happiness and taking care of myself. i won’t look for love, but if it finds me i’ll try my best to not be afraid and let myself fall in love again. it will be hard but when i meet the right person, i won’t be afraid because that person wouldn’t make me feel that way. i also really want to be able to be happy without a significant other because the one person i can always depend on is really myself. not everyone is as caring or selfless so i shouldn’t pour out my heart to anyone. i need to be happy and love myself first.
I need to focus on attaining my own happiness and working towards my goals. Once I am happy with myself and the life I make, only then can I be prepared for a relationship with someone else without having doubts and insecurities, and really make things work and be happy and carefree.
He says I was the best thing that ever happened to him and that he’s the happiest he’s ever been. This is enough for me now. Even if things change, at least I will know one point in time we we’re each other’s everything and we have helped each other so much.
We first went out on January 7 of this year. We ended it May 17th of this year. This day might end up to be my biggest regret or it might be for the best. Only time will tell and when he finds what he’s looking for and I finally heal and learn to trust again. We both have to focus on our own lives before we can truly be happy together. I love him and he loves me, that’s one thing that will never change. We promised to always be there for each other no matter what and alway confide in each other when we’re sad or happy. I’m afraid of getting jealous and so is he but we will get through this. Love will find a way. If we’re meant to be we will end up together later on in life, if not we can just be best friends. I will be sad if he moves on at first but soon I know I will be happy for him because his smile is the most important thing. I know this is final because Daniel does not make decisions quickly, he thinks things out. I think I feel the same way, but I’ve just been trying to avoid it. We both jumped into this relationship too quickly. He’s not ready for something so serious and I’m not ready to trust and be confident because i’m still affected by my past. Four months feels like a long time and i’ve had some of the best moments of my life.I will never forget them even as time passes. I will always remember how i felt with daniel and how happy I felt to see his wonderful smile. Daniel, you will forever be a part of my life and in my heart. I wish you the best. You are amazing person and i’ll always believe that. If you ever feel alone or lost, I will always be there just a phone call away. You’ve changed my life. Thank you for everything.
